Brandy

01:30 am: I FUCKING HATE FEMA
I hate FEMA. i applied for aid 12 days ago and have still not received my $2000. other people i know have applied for it and gotten it the next day. fuck, even my brother who my mom still claims got the $2000. so i called fema tonight and gave them my id number and they tell me that they have no record of my user id in their system. then they proceed to tell me that they can no longer help me. i have to call back and when i hear an option for option 3 then i press that and i will be helped. so i went and filled out another application. i figured since there was no record maybe there was a glich in the system. so i just went and checked the status of my applications.... the first one, that they claim they have no record of, was denied b/c of multiple registrations, and the newer one i just completed tonight says decision pending. HOW FUCKING LONG DO I HAVE TO WAIT UNTIL I CAN GET SOME MOTHER FUCKING AID? I HAVE NO JOB, NO HOME, NO NOTHING, AND THE FUCKING GOVERNMENT AND FEMA DON'T SEEM TO GIVE A FUCK! i really wish i could write a letter to the president asking him for the money since he claims that they are helping us. helping us, yeah right. all they are doing is stressing me out.

i'm so pissed off right now i'm fucking seeing red. i was about to go to bed but now i think i'm gonna have a few more beers.

its sad, i'm 25 years old and i hate this fucking country. if i could pack up and leave today, i would. why the fuck have i been paying taxes since i was 17 just to fucked in the ass when i needed the help the most. UGH, i'm just fucking disgusted with this situation.

08:07 pm: stolen from arica
this is a good one.


http://onegoodmove.org/1gm/1gmarchive/002095.html

09:21 pm: you know what pisses me off
when the news mentions a fucked up good story worth watching and they don't show it until the very end so you have to watch the whole thing, cause you know as soon as you change it, they'll show what you were waiting for.

Plus they didn't give any more additional information than what they had already been saying.

Ugh, that just irritates me!

07:49 pm: Dam It!

Sometimes, myspace just pisses me the fuck off!

04:56 pm: So, I'v been busting my ass at both jobs and dealing with all this DUI shit. I feel like I have no time for myself or to hang out with anybody besides being out at the Dervish, and I usually don't remember too much of it anyway.

I start community service tomorrow along with going to work and going to driving classes at night, so I have 2 14 hour days in front of me. God, it needs to be Friday. At least by the end of July my community service will be over and all I will have to do is pay off my fines. Then I will be done! Yeah!

I was real proud of myself and Arica this weekend. We were at home and in bed by 3am both nights, which is a rarity for us. I actually felt good when I woke up and not like shit like usual. I'm sure that won't happen again for a while.

I get to hang out with Lisa & Laura tomorrow night, which I am excited about. I never get to see them and they are my closest friends. I love girls night with brocoli dip, beer, and movies. I just makes me feel great! I kinda forget all about life for the little bit of time I have to hang out with them. I wish we all had more time to spend together, but 2 of us are working 2 jobs and Lisa is working her ass to the bone.

So, I wanted to go to Bloc Party friday night but forgot about it until that day but didn't have enough money to go. And what do you know, Edwin calls me that night and says he'll pay for me to go, but I had already made plans with Arica and Keith. I soo wanted to go, but that wouldn't have been cool to sell them out.

Anyway, I missed everybody this past weekend. Hopefully everyone will be out this weekend. Bubby's b-day is saturday the 18th, just fyi!

03:55 pm: well, some of this is right, but i am certaintly not self centered. anyone who knows me knows that.

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to good manners and elegance.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love.

Your risk of cheating is low. Even if you're tempted, you'd try hard not to do it.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered.

10:34 am: this was so cool
http://www.amtelecom.net/~mandclu/numerology/

12:08 pm: I always knew I used up all those brain cells on something

Bourbon Congratulations! You're 120 proof, with specific scores in beer (80) , wine (100), and liquor (60).

Screw all that namby-pamby chick stuff, you're going straight for the bottle and a shot glass! It'll take more than a few shots of Wild Turkey or 99 Bananas before you start seeing pink elephants. You know how to handle your alcohol, and yourself at parties.

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 41% on proof You scored higher than 92% on beer index You scored higher than 92% on wine index You scored higher than 85% on liquor index

Link: The Alcohol Knowledge Test written by hoppersplit on Ok Cupid

01:06 pm: Saturday night was so much fun. It was the most fun I had in a long time. I loved the music, the people, the mood, it was all so great. Shellys birthday celebration is definitely one for the record books. I haven't pulled an all nighter at the dervish since I started working at Masperos. Dancing til dawn with Cyn, Susan, Shelly, Chris, Rich, Edwin, Josephine, and Alex was fucking great. I still can't believe Rich got out there and danced with us. For at least 4 or 5 songs, how I wish I had a camera. I wish Lisa would have stayed longer and I wish Laura would have come, but I know she was probably exhausted after working.

I miss Lisa and Laura- we really need to hang out soon, like sometime this week.

I think I'm breaking up with Keith, just don't know how I'm gonna do this. I don't want to hurt him but lately I'm just not feeling it, and I would rather end it now than prolong this torture. I feel like such a horrible person for this. He's a great guy, but we're just too different.

I need to move out of my house soon. I'm going crazy living with them.

I've already cried 3 times at work this morning and I'm fighting back tears now. I have so much shit to think about on top of work stressing me out, I feel like I'm going to lose it. I just want to crawl into a hole and sleep for a week.

09:04 am: Bobby from Masperos called yesterday to tell me he had a bonus for me for working thru Mardi Gras. I went to pick it up last night and it was $100 bucks. Fucking right $100 bonus!!!! That totally made my night. I love working for a place that takes care of its good employees.

Went and spent half of it at Angeli with Keith and Laura but it was so worth it. Dinner with those 2 and some beers on top of my soma made for a great night. actually got to sleep early thanks to the rain, but still late for work this morning. Oh well, what ya gonna do.

Later, I gotta work now!

09:51 am: I have been working so much lately, my life just sucks.

After finally getting over being hurt, which my back still hurts a little everyday, I've been doing nothing but working. After work all I want to do is relax but we all know thats impossible living in my apartment. I'm constantly cleaning up something, whether it's Greg & Laura's mess, or Margo crap, its always something. I really can't wait to move out.

Work really really sucked this weekend. I worked from 2-11 sat. It wasn't that bad except I knew I had to work a double sun so I wasn't looking forward to it. I made $130 bucks though and I got to leave at 11, not 12. But, one of the waitresses didn't tip me, dumb bitch. She never prebusses her tables and then she leaves without tiping me. I know I only worked half the shift but I deserves something. Sunday is a totally different story. Everything was going fine until this table tried toleave without paying their bill. The waitress was to busy to run after them so I had too. Caught them on the corner and this old man starts screaming at me that he's not paying for their drinks cause he claims their food was taking to long. So, the cops come cause we had to call them and he tells the guy he had 2 options. Pay the $11 for the drinks or go to jail and the idiot says he'll go to jail. So again the cop tells him the same thing and then tells him he's got another car coming so he can take all of them and pulls out the handcuffs. That $11 came flying out of his pocket so fast, but by then I was so pissed off and my line had now gotten to be very long and all the empty tables were dirty. I was so mad I wanted to cry and this happened around 2, I had to work til 11. We slowed down enough for me to wolf down a sandwich and then got very busy all over again. By 9:00 I could barely move and they let 2 waitresses leave so I had to stay til close. I didn't get home til 11:30.

And since I hate my home and my roomates I was not happy. Greg & Laura lost my kitten. They let her get out friday night and we haven't seen her since. I'm so upset and I hate both of them so much for it. Neither one has even bothered to apologize, surprise surprise. Oh, but when their dumbass dog eats some of Lauras weed and can't move they're all worried. I don't care, I hope the fucking dog dies from it, at least then they would know a little how I feel. But, she was ok this morning. She was just laying on the sofa so Laura had to line every chair with towels cause the dog has no control over her bladder right now. Yeah, let her lay on the sofa, just put towels down, nevermind keeping her off the sofa like I've asked 100 times. That dam dog gets more respect from them than I do. Fuck them.

And I woke up this morning with the start of pink eye. Gee, what a great life I have.

04:09 pm: UGH! I fucking hate accounting!! This sucks that a portion of my job requires a lot of it. It also sucks that none of my property files are balancing. In a quest to figure out why, I have done nothing but drive myself crazy and give myself a nice huge headache.

Dam girl that trained me didn't do a portion of her job before she left and now in order for me to balance from the end of January I have to go back and do all the work she didn't do. On top of that I have a ton of other stuff due this week. The first 2 weeks of the month are my busiest and now I have extra shit to do. She knew she was leaving so I guess she figured why do the work. She could have at least fucking told me she didn't do it so I could have. My life would be a lot easier had she done this.

ARGH ARGH UGH!!!

Is it 5:00 yet?

09:10 pm: THIS WEEK TOTALLY SUCKED ASS!!!
So, today is the first day in 5 days that I'm able to walk by myself. My sciatic nerve flared up late Tuesday night and I have been in horrible pain since then. I couldn't even walk most of wednesday and all of thursday. I've been so doped up on Vicodin and muscle relaxers just so I could get some sleep without waking up constantly in pain. I had to miss 3 days of work at Latter & Blum and this weekend at Masperos. I was really counting on making like $200 cash this weekend but no, I spent it all couped up inside my house.

What really pisses me off is that I missed Friday night at the Dervish when Connor was playing a set. I really wanted to hear the new Fischerspooner. I had to miss Saturday night too, and since Tim played last Saturday and I left early I really haven't been out in over a week. I'm going fucking stir crazy.

So, I go to work tomorrow morning at Latter & Blum, yes they are open even though they are in the CBD, but I have to go to the chiropractor at 11:30 for another adjustment. Then I have to come home, rest and ice my back and go to work at Masperos for 5. I told them I would pick up Monday and Tuesday nights, especially since I couldn't work this weekend. So, Mardi Gras day I'm gonna eat my treats from Laura and I should have plenty of time to come down to go to work. Besides, who cares if I show up fucked up for work on Mardi Gras. I should make plenty of money just charging people to use the bathroom.

I also owe Keith so much for everything he's done for me these past 5 days. Any man that can tolerate his girlfriend screaming at him, telling him to fuck off, crying on his shoulder, and constantly asking for his help deserves something special. I just don't know what I'm gonna do for him yet. This has shown me how much he actually loves me, not that I doubted him, it just showed me how much. It has also opened my eyes to how much I love him.

So, anyone that has no plans for Mardi Gras day get in touch with me. I'm just gonna hang around my house and the quarter. The walking parade that passes right in front of my house is pretty fun, different from floats and tourons. Plus, I don't want to go uptown and get stuck and not be able to go to work. I want to make some cash money!!

Well, time to get high and get some more sleep.

04:19 pm: I should be working but this was too fun

I tashte like Alcohol. Heh. Heh. I taste like beer. I like beer. Buy me a beer. I'm not drunk, I can drink plenty without... What was I saying? Beer. What Flavour Are You?

11:14 am: isn't it sad that i should be working

Vertigo by U2

"The night is full of holes Those bullets rip the sky Of ink with gold They twinkle as the boys play rock and roll" In 2004 you partied so hard... you forgot how to count.

02:36 pm: So, I started both my new jobs last week and they both went pretty good. Maspero's is easy, just really hectic at times considering I am the only hostess/busser. But, it's worth it for the money. The shifts aren't that bad cause they are only 6 hours plus time flies by because we are so busy. And now that I've had a whole weekend working there it's getting easier. I was just worried at first that I'd fuck up and piss of the waitresses and that's where my money comes from, so I didn't want to do that.

Last night was busy, and we had our share of weirdos. I know it's only going to get worse as Mardi Gras comes too. But I just never thought I'd see some of the gross shit like I saw last night. We had 1 table of guys come in and seat themselves and then started to eat the food left on the table by the previous party. YUCK! Then, this family comes in and the mom is so drunk she proceeds to throw up all over the table, herself, and the floor. Oh what fun it was to watch that. Luckily the dishwasher cleaned it up for me, but it's usually the hostess' job.

Latter and Blum is alright. It's just a lot of stuff I have to remember. It's not that hard and once I do everything a few times I'll have no problems. It's also real nice cause there is no one riding my ass or bothering me. I can work at my own pace. And I get an Office, a reserved parking space in a garage that they pay for, and a direct phone line straight to my office. It's so cool. I can put pictures up in my office and listen to the radio or cd's on the computer. WOOHOO!

So, I've just been real busy and tired. And now I have an ear infection, cold, and sore body. I just want a day off and it ain't gonna happen. But, at least I'm making some money.

On top of all my working I did manage to go out this weekend. Friday night was fun. It was Mark's last night and he did an awesome job. Now I kinda wish he wouldn't quit, but I think we're going to get some good djing this friday night. Saturday was fun, as usual, but I was just way to tired to stay out too late. Ate Angeli around 3:30-4 and then came home and went to bed. Now I have 2 hours before work today. Yeah, happy happy joy joy. At least the people I work with tonight are cool.

So, that's my life now. Work, work, work, go out, work.

Time to nap.

05:42 pm: I HAVE 2 NEW JOBS! YEAH!!

Arica got me a job at Masperos starting this saturday. I'm excited about that. She says it's pretty easy and the money is good. I'll only be working saturdays and sundays though, but thats fine with me. And the hours are like from 5-11 so I can still go out. Thank you Arica. You're the best sister any girl could have.

I worked a temp job today and the woman that gets me all these jobs from the temp agency called and asked me to go on an interview during my lunch hour, so I did that. The company called her back and said they want me to start monday. So now I'll be working M-F 8:30-5 and the weekends. It's going to be weird working all the time but I need to. I've really started to fall behind on bills, at least this way I'll get my ass out of debt faster. And now that I'm working what they call temp to hire, if they really like me then I get hired on by Latter & Blum themselves and get a raise and benefits. And since it is a well known company I have room for growth. Maybe this college degree is actually going to pay off.

My kitten is doing fine. She still terrorizes Margeaux, so I think I'll keep her. I was thinking of naming her Chloe. She could be a Chloe. And it doesn't sound anything like Margeaux so the dumb dog won't get confused. And I'll actually be able to afford to get her shots and get her fixed when the time comes. Don't want any cat babies. Did that when I lived with Laura and boy do they stink.

It's been pretty quiet around the house with Laura gone. It's actually been pretty nice. The house isn't messy. There aren't clothes, dishes, shoes, and trash lying around. Greg is actually clean when she is not here. And Margeaux actually listens and is good also. But, she'll be back Sunday. Then all the craziness begins again. At least now I'll be working most of the week and be out so I'll probably hardly ever see her. As long as now she keeps up her mess, cause I DO NOT CLEAN UP if I'm working all day and the weekends. They'll have to start pulling their own weight around here.

So, tonights the time for some celebrating. I'm looking forward to 80's night, especially after what happened new years eve. I need some good dancing music. Saturday night should be fun also. Edwin is getting better every week, and now that Cynthia and I have finally located Shelly, I know she'll be there this weekend also. Glad all the holidays are over and life can return to normal. Well, at least until Mardi Gras starts.

01:55 pm: Had a good Christmas. Saw all my family and ate lots of good food. I got great presents from all my friends and family. I didn't go out at all this past weekend though, just to tired and cold. The snow Christmas morning was pretty cool, probably won't see anything like that in years.

Went to the Fondu party at Eric's last night. Fondu=good!!! It was sooo yummy. Laura and Eric made cheese, meat, and chocolate fondu. And there was a never ending supply of red wine, which gave me quite a nice hangover this morning. OH Laura, I left a bag at Eric's with your purse in it, along with a belt for Lisa and a choker for whichever one of you wants it. I don't remember if I told you this last night and I don't recall Lisa leaving with the belt, but I could be wrong. I was pretty drunk.

I'm looking forward to New Years more than I was to Christmas. I'm definitely going out Friday night. Word is that Mark is going to dj and Connor is supposed to play for an hour, but I'm not sure when. This is what we were told by Mark last night, so it should be a fun night. Hopefully Lisa, Laura, and I can enjoy our gifts from Charlie on New Years Eve. Hopefully everyone that usually comes out on Saturday night will come out Friday too.

And we have now gotten another kitten. Greg and I found it outside the house and it is so friendly and so cute. We think it probably belongs to someone because of how friendly it is, and it's not starving, and it's claws aren't that long. We don't think its a street cat so we're going to make flyers saying we found a kitten. I would actually prefer to keep it and so would Greg, but I think trying to find the owner is probably best for now. I can't see putting this kitten back on the street if we don't find the owner, so the way I look at it is we now have another cat. This does not make Margeaux or Palicanda happy, especially Margeaux. It is rather amusing to watch this kitten hiss at Margeaux and watch her jump back from it. I brings a big smile to my face cause that dog drives me crazy.

08:15 am: there are at least 2 i would do this to
If there is someone on your friends list you would like to take, strip naked, tie them to a bed post, eat them until they scream, then fuck them until both of you are sensless and unable to fuck anymore, then wait about 5 minutes, and do it all over again, then post this exact sentence in YOUR journal.

08:10 am: blah
why is it that as Christmas draws closer, i find myself wanting to crawl under a rock and sleep til New Years?

i can already feel the inner scrooge in myself starting to wake up and show herself.